I opened my door and my ex boyfriend Chris was there. I was happy to see him. We took my bus home to my Nan’s funeral. My dad was showing it off, he was avoiding my uncle. I was then avoiding Chris remembering how needy he was. Then I was at another ex boyfriend (jordan) Nan’s funeral. It was lovely seeing him we caught up, we’re chatting and seeking one another out. My van was down a boardwalk, but the path made of wooden me was a little sunken. I drove anyway, then came to some steps which were quite steep, tried to get up with people supporting me but close to the top I was stuck. I didn’t want Chris. I wanted Jordan, his face and presence filled me with joy, but then I felt needy like I needed to find him.
Dreams often reflect our thoughts, feelings, and experiences, and your dream contains several significant elements that can provide insights into your emotions and relationships. Here's a breakdown of some of the symbols and themes in your dream:
Ex-Boyfriends: The presence of your two ex-boyfriends, Chris and Jordan, suggests unresolved feelings or comparisons between past relationships. Seeing Chris first and initially feeling happy may indicate a nostalgia or fondness for aspects of your past, even if you ultimately remember the reasons for your breakup.
Funeral: Funerals often symbolize closure or the end of a phase. Attending a funeral—specifically of family members—could signify a need to process loss, not just in a literal sense but also in terms of moving on from past relationships or aspects of your life.
Avoidance: You mentioned avoiding Chris, likely reflecting feelings of needing space from certain past experiences or traits that you associate with him. This might symbolize recognizing what you don’t want in a future relationship.
Support and Struggle: The steep steps represent challenges or obstacles, and the support you received indicates that you might appreciate the help of friends or family in navigating these challenges. Feeling stuck towards the top may suggest a fear of fully overcoming these obstacles, possibly related to your feelings for your past relationships.
Desire for Connection: Your feelings about Jordan, with whom you seem to seek connection and joy, reveal your longing for what you perceive as a more fulfilling or supportive relationship. The contrasting feelings of neediness and joy may reflect inner conflict between wanting to feel secure and desiring independence in your relationships.
The Boardwalk and Van: The boardwalk and the van could symbolize the journey you’re on in life. The sunken path might suggest that there are difficulties in your current path or a feeling of instability, while still moving forward despite these challenges.
Overall, this dream seems to reflect a journey of self-discovery related to love and loss, emphasizing the importance of identifying what you truly want in future relationships while acknowledging past experiences. It may be helpful to consider what qualities you value in partners moving forward and how you want to navigate your emotional needs.